Friday, June 17, 2011

WLJ Weekend Update: 6.17.11

I FAIL.

At least this week.  Not just in the weight loss world, but just my life in general.  I haven't ran, tracked, blogged (in any of my blogs) or really done anything useful all week.

Why?

No fucking clue.  I think, sometimes, I just suck at life.  Which is human.  I can think of no better way to describe it than how my former sorority sister did on the "Sometimes I Suck at Life - Iowa State Chapter" Facebook group:
This is a group for anyone who ever messes up, even once. This includes, but is not limited to, losing an important document, losing your phone even if it's just in your car or on your desk, listening to someone talk to you about you and not have it register (you know who you are), accidentally bombing a test, saying something you shouldn't when you shouldn't, tripping up or down the stairs in front of that really hot person in your class,falling down steps and landing on both your knees, staying up til 3:30 am just because you aren't tired ... but definitely being too exhausted to make it to your 8 am the next day, being drunk on a weekday, drunk dialing, wearing pajamas to class everyday, forgetting someones birthday, missing a deadline, making an ass of yourself, hurting someone you care about inadvertently, getting caught doing something you shouldn't, eating 12 pieces of toast in one sitting [me - guilty as charged] ... It doesn't mean you actually suck at life, but sometimes you're lacking ... and that is OK.
I believe the last line of this description is the most important.  I don't actually suck, I'm just human.  I'm allowed to mess-up and not be perfect.  Remembering this is important because it gives you the power to move forward and forget about it.  Also, have a group like this (even if just on Facebook) is a good reminder that EVERYONE has bad days/weeks/months which is comforting.

Everyone sucks at life sometimes.  Everyone fails at some point.  What matters most is how people react to the failures and suckiness that happen.

This is, for me, the most important thing I've learned in WW: I must forgive myself. 

I remember when I still went to meetings and my former leader did a meeting where she had several "Life-time" members go to the front of the room and tell us their stories and the most important thing they'd learned from WW.

Overwhelmingly the response was the same: forgiving themselves.

Not quitting because they had a bad weigh-in or because they ate a big piece of cake instead of a salad at dinner.  Not telling themselves, "I can't do this!" when they accidentally ate too much peanut butter.  Instead, they reframed the situation and told themselves, "Okay, so I messed-up.  That's no reason to quit.  I get to start fresh...RIGHT NOW."

Which is what I'm doing.  This is a new week, last week is done, I can't change it.  And this week I'll do my best...but remember that I'm human.  I suck at life sometimes...and that's okay.

New Stats:
Start Weight: 232.4
Current Weight: 145.8
Weight-loss to date: 85.6
Goal Weight: 139 (new goal)
Pounds to Goal: 6.8

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