I'm back

Apparently I do better with tracking my weight loss when I force myself to write about it.

So, I'm bringing back "Those Fabulous Running Shoes".

Since deciding to retire this blog and combine it with my personal blog I pretty much just stopped doing anything weight loss related. There are many reasons for this, none that I want to really talk/write about, and those reasons aren't the purpose of this post.

This is me bringing back my tradition of weighing-in on Saturday mornings. For whatever reason, I managed my weight best when I forced myself to WI publicly on here every Saturday. It was sort of my very own WW meeting. I think part of it was that I knew I was inspiring others to take care of themselves. I know my friend Brea started running partially because of me. I know my friend Micah rejoined WW after seeing my success with it. And, I now that my mom and uncle were both really proud of me for losing all that weight the healthy and natural way.

And, when I can help others I feel best about myself.

And, I could use some help right now. My self-esteem and self-worth are sort of in the shitter. It's not completely due to the fact that I've gained about 10 pounds, although that is part of it.

I. Just. Don't. Feel. Like. Me.

I'm not sure when it happened, but in the last 4 months or so I lost myself. After swearing I'd never do it again. Maybe it was turning 30. Maybe it was moving back to Des Moines. Maybe it was starting a new job. Maybe it was getting off schedule with my meds and my PCOS going butt-fuck crazy. Maybe it was a combo of everything.

Who knows?

I know I'm ready for it to be over with. I'm sick of it. I want my confidence back. I want fit in my clothes again and I want finally feel good about something in my life. So, I'll start with this little blog again. Where I can measure my success. And, hopefully get some feedback from y'all that will make me want to keep going, because I could really use some encouragement.

So, here we go again.

Stats as of last Thursday:
Start Weight: 231.4
Current Weight: 149.4
Weight-loss to date: 82.0
Goal for Saturday: 148
Miles Goal: 12 miles (I in no way think this will happen via running)

I'd like to be back around 141 by Thanksgiving. That's technically just under 12 pounds from where I was a few weeks ago - or roughly the size of the average Thanksgiving Turkey. My challenge is to lose a Turkey by Thanksgiving - follow along with the ticker at the top :)