Oh, hey, it's me again

I'm sucking at this challenge. I could make a thousand excuses, but it mostly comes down to the fact that I'm just not super motivated. You'd think with a looming move to a city with some of the most beautiful women in the world I'd be motivated to get it together, but I'm not.

Some of my lack of motivation may be because I feel completely out of control with my life. I don't have the ability to plan anything at the moment because I'm constantly waiting on other people to do their part in some kind of process. And, I'm sorry to say, people consistently disappoint me. I just don't understand how hard it is to do what you say you are going to do. I know I'm not perfect, and I drop the ball at times, but seriously people?! If you say you are going to do something, effing do it! This is how you build trust - and I've lost a lot of trust in some friends as of late.

And, in the effort to be my own friend, to keep promises to myself, and to also build some momentum to get through the last couple months in Iowa, I've started a reward system. My friend Laurel helped me come up with it and I think it has some merits, so I'm going to share them with you:

• I've wanted a Marc Jacobs bag for as long as I can remember, so I've decided that I am going to reward myself with a little money every day to use towards a MJ bag. I'll earn money when I do the following things:

1. 10¢ for every mile I run
2. 50¢ for days I work at BLUE
   
3. 50¢ for days when I don't work at BLUE, but get shit done.
   
4. 50¢ if I track all my food
5. 10¢ if I do any weight training or yoga

It doesn't seem like much, but if I do a fair job I'll save up enough money to pay for most of the bag I want (which is a super awesome tote that I can use for school).

I will be finishing the Teeny by Halloweeny challenge out strong, staring my daily posts again on Monday. It should be easier now because I did something really hard (for me) and told my boss that if he didn't cut my hours immediately (he kept scheduling me outside my availability) I was going to walk out (It's funny how having money in the bank makes life just a little bit easier and gives you some power, huh?). Well, since he needs me to stay, he did I as I asked. So, yay, I don't have to be at BLUE as often and can now spend time working on things that actually matter to me :)