Sunday, February 20, 2011

Keeping it Together

Finally, I can say I'm almost packed for my trip.  I have a few things I can't pack until the day I leave (toothbrush, hairbrush, etc) and I need to find myself some casual black shoes for meandering, but otherwise I'm pretty much done!  Bonus: I easily got everything into my carry-on bag!  My only trouble was the stupid "one-quart bag with all liquids per person" rule.  I mean, seriously?  A woman was obviously not involved in that decision.

So, what to do while I eagerly await my departure from the frozen tundra?  Well, tonight I'm going to finish up a couple craft projects and tomorrow I'll be meeting my extended family for lunch.  I'll probably try to find the before mentioned shoes tomorrow as well and also run to get a few personal grooming things done (goodbye Italibrows).

Now that I'm packed, it feels real.  I'm going to visit that place that will hopefully be my home this summer.  I'm both excited and nervous - what if NYC isn't how I remember and I hate it there?  What if my expectations aren't met?  Then what do I do?
"I don't have expectations. Expectations in your life just lead to giant disappointments."
~ Michael Landon
I'm trying to just live in the moment and enjoy my trip with my best friend, but its hard.  If I don't like it there then I'll have to completely reevaluate all of my current goals - eek!  I've told pretty much anyone who will listen to me that I'm moving out East this summer, so I'm scared that if I change my mind they'll all think of me as a failure and a few of them will give the ol' "I knew you'd never leave".

I just need to get my expectations in check and remember that NYC isn't an oasis - there is noise, dirt, pollution, crowds and rude people.  If I go in knowing and remembering this I don't think I'll be disappointed - if anything I'll be surprised by how clean, quiet, and friendly it is (and honestly, I believe the people in NYC are friendly - they are just more blunt than Iowans).  I've got to keep myself together and stop worrying - I'm going to have a blast with my best friend and meet a few new people along the way.  That's all that matters.

2 comments:

  1. If NYC isn't what you are expecting, remember that "out East" is a big region and you can find another city that meets your needs, wants and expectations.

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  2. You're right Brea - you always cheer me up! :D

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